What I feel

I've been keeping this few days . Things started to change when it's start to quarrel . You just giving some certain hint that telling me that I'm not tat so good to love you . I've been hurt that much a lots . don't you ever remember the time you post should share your proble with someone that you got like :/ it's fucking can't forget anything . And even you got say why didn't ur own gf pampered you why must others.it's fcuking hurt till now th pain doesnt gone. I can't say anything cos everything seems to be wrong . I don't mean to change myself but it change by itself and I just don't know why am I being like this . Revengeful in my heart . I try my best to throw everything . It's hurt much though but I'm trying keeping myself quiet cos I don't wanna hurt you in any way it does . Nothing faded but then , I don't know whats fucking wrong with me . I feel so fucking useless not like last time . I try being strong to be with you . I don't wish to lose you in any way at all cos for me you are really precious to me .I'm trying to change myself in a better way but it's still hurt me and it will take time to heal slowly. I'm sorry for everything change cos Im not me like who I am before . A lil bit change cos a lil hurt that hurt me deeply much . I just feel like crying but Dhen why should I . You could say my lil sister being there for me . Yes she did but Dhen I try not to be by her side let her be independent . And today in sudden things doesn't goes well again . It's been going to be 2weeks things remain like this . Baby nothing I should blame you . Maybe both of us make mistake without realise but Dhen I hope things everything goes well Dhen :/ still loving you like how I use to be . All though you tot something change in me :') attitude may change but not my love towards you :') iloveyoufavourite girl <3

Its been 1week this happens :/

everything i do all wrong :/ 

Sacarstic tone of voice easily irrits me -.-

What did i do ?

We didnt text much & otp today ,

I'm happy to get to hear ur voice but then ...

Haish ! 

Forget it im off to sleep :/ 

night !

Hey diary , long time i didn't update my blog , 

here you go..

Its been busy all day with GF lah ape lagy kan ^^ 

Yesterday gf sleepover my house lah :))

AWESOME NIGHT with you baby <3

#myonlyFAVOURITEGIRL

Before we slep yesterday we took some pics with my sis <3

Mcm org gilerh lah kite enjoy ourself laughing :))

Wee~

Missing my bdk babi helmet with tears :')

Meet up soon okayy when you free . 

masing masing skg busy .

Mak asyik tanye fana tak dtg .

Unbelievable

UNBELIEVABLE !

8 Months being with my lil cute gf .

Gosh ~ Am i dreaming or what ?

Today 13 siia :))

Time fly tat fast eh ?

Well , its been a long tyme not having a long term relationship :))

Well , for me i don't really care how many months or years we been thru , 

but dhen sincere love is th most important :)

What for having a long term relationship without sincere ?

Well sincerely i really sayang my gf alots . 

Sincerely not from my mouth but totally from my heart :)

I just can't replace with with anyone else . 

We've been quarrel about all th small thingy . 

Well nothing changes in my heart :)

Its totally th same like last time . 

We've been thru up & down all this while . 

I was suprise that you are strong enough to overcome all th obstacle that step over us . 

I was totally proud of you being this strong . 

Well hoping this will stay with us while we continue our love journey baby :))

Let's fight every obstacle that come over us :))

ILOVEYOU & ONLY YOU BABY <3 

#CintaMampos13

Qatekshortiie 

"having a thot of turning back to straight :) my real world :)) but nah ???

I'm still wide awake . 

I can't sleep . My mind was ruining everything . 

I just can't explain anything that happening now . 

I'm weak to overcome this again & again . 

I've been keeping deep deep inside . 

I ca't let it out anymore . 

When i was about to tell everything ,

I was asked to shut up ,

But when i kept quiet and just keep it in my heart , 

You don't like and angry with me . 

What should i do now ?

You can just hate her for all you want ,

Cos i won't hate her for once . 

You can show your attitude .

She never done anything wrong towards you .

She didn't even fuck you around . 

She treat you like a lil'sister but yet this you give it to her ?

Not side you or her actually but yet please 

OPEN UP your eyes WIDELY .

Well you show people that you hate people all that , 

what if one day its happen to you ?

People hate with your character ?

Think far my dear ,

Its hard to overcome all this .

And hell yeah i won't ever say word 'LEAVE'

Cos its won't stated on my dictionary .

And yes , how your character is ,

I still accept for who you are . 

I'm trying to be the best person in your life but things bring down when you post,

"having a thot of turning back to straight :) my real world :)) but nah."

I'm down much much . GOSH ! 

Well , things happen i can't do anything already , 

Follow with the flow . 

Nothing i could force .

ILOVEYOU GF