In the sudden , in my mind thinking about my family ..

I just miss my family badly ...

I just wish things will get like last time :(

I just want us to have a happy life like last time

This is my sister family ..

I just miss them alots .. its been almost after raya 2010 ,

till now i didnt met them anymore ..

i just miss the happy moment with them :((

About this my little mr Kerinting ...

He is Muhammad Nur Quraidee ..

i noe ur bdaey just past on 16 February ..

I just miss you .. i can 't celebrate ur bithday due  to family problem ..

although we r apart , i do still remember you ...

i just wish that u won't forget who is ur nenek/atok and pakcik makcik raidee ..

This is my 2nd nephew ...

Muhammad Nur Irfan...

although bnyak2 anak sedare , u the most very degel ..

i do still remember you ..

This year your last year to sit for P.S.L.E kan ?

I just wish u luck and study hard okehh ??

This is my 3rd anak sedare ...

Nursharifah Quraishah

she close to me before bt now after all being seperated ...

all change ...

This year u pri 4 ryte ? Remember , u must study hard tau ..

Next year u primary 5  already ..

so no more playing okehh ?

I just MISS your hug :(

AND LASTLY ...

This is my 1st anak sedare ..

Nursharifah shahirah

I noe u only care for one side of the story of ur parents ryte?

You are still young and can't think that far ..

Just remember ur mama sentiase miss u no matter how bad she is :(

Go and give her a kol aite :))

One more thing , Next year you going to secondary 3 ..

you need to study hard also k ?

its not the tym for u alek skolah lepak kat mac .. there is no use lepak ..

nobody taking care ur adik beradik ...

Lead a way my DEAR .. so  ur siblings sume dgr kate ... 

Kak nor .. i just miss u so much okehh ..

how bad u r , u r still my blood sister okehh

I hope u okehh ryte now ...

Btw if im free , i stay BEDOK  with you okehh ?

I L O V E Y O U ! !

Today Valentine day :))

Today Valentine day ...
Supposely celebrating .. but this year mcm no mood :((
hmm , i was searching for Mrs right come in my life ..
*wamdering* who cud be mine ..
In my hearts,there is still her name ...
I just can't forget her ..
It's damn hard  ... Although how much she hurt me by her Character ... i do still hurt with my full heart ..
Why can't i just forget her ... its 1month plus being single and this is my first tym encountered this situation...
Nana also realised in me .. she told me that this is not Jayjay that she noe ...
I just dunnoe ...


Right now ,
              Fafad , Az and Fyqa go back olready :( Going to mish her again .. hmm ~!
Currently with nana , baby and nana sister aje at hm nana :(
Tapi , nana and baby kat bilik ... entah ape downg buat .. agaknye slip .. :(( Left me alone outside ...


I Mish her again ~! i mish her hug :(


I promise to love you forever ~ every single day forever

JayJay Qatek will alwaes Love you fafad :))

Last Long okehh kowang due :)) 110211

Az dan Fyqa Takmu fyte2 okehh :)) tak bagos .. haha  !

Spending tym with her at NANAFANA house :))Not Only with fafad but Az Chakie,Baby,Fyqa :))

Stress oit dgn prangai NANAFANA ! ish ! IRRITATING mintak kene tendang :)) haha ! Kat rumah pon nak bawak bag .. Tripping perhhh ~! haha ! Sumpah kau bising DOG ! ish ! az dgn fyqa tido ..asyik sleep aje :(

PERANGAI PIG ~! haha ! baby dary tadi ketawe kan prangai nana .. haha ! Nana , nana .... Kelakar oit ...

Now , ape yg aku type .. ade je die nak bace ..

dasar budak KPO ! haha ! Feel mcm taknak go werk nyari ... Badan mcm tak sehat after werk 24hours :(( not enough rest till now ..

Grr~! hmm .. now gossip psl org lak .. ish !

Get back to you all later :)) saye  nak sleep jap dgn .................

haha  !ngantok :)) malas nak layan irritating NANA :))

haha  !BANYAK SANGAT MULOT  mcm MAKNENEK !!!

BYE PPL :)

BY THE WAY HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY PEOPLE !!

And to NANAFANA & AMIRAHBABYCUTECUTE last long okehh :)) 110211

To AZchakie&FyqaNasty kowang takmu GADO2 okeyy ??And to Fyqa , kalao tido takmu bobual sendiri:)

To My dearest FAFADkyoko , Takmu sadsad k ?? Kid will alwaes remember you ... Just waet be patience k ?And do remember i will alwaes love u NOW AND FOREVER :))

Im not ready in love :)

Guys out dere , im sorry can't accept ur love cos im not ready to be n love ...
Cos u shud noe that in my heart there is still Fafad ...
Dun get me wrong tat i wanna play out ur heart .... im sorry guys ...
Let us be frens ferst :))

Throw all the past ...

I just promise myself throw everything what i had been thru this month away ..
Its 1 month being single and this my only first tym being like this ..
ii dunnoe why i become like this ... i gave all my love to you ..
i just dunnoe why am i so STUPID easily put full love to you ..
But i won't regret loving u fafad ... although its hurt tat much ryte now am i ...
i still love you and really do ... in LOVE, i won't force ...
I HATE FORCING THAT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME ... LET LOVE COME BY ITSELF ..
Maybe its karma all over me .. cos in the past i done it too ..
I will accept the facts .. 


Now i just hate LOVE  so damn Fvcking much ... Love damn hurts ..


Now i will make myself busy with werking than thinking about love ..
The more i think bout u , the more i can't concentrate on work ...


Love , 
      Remember i won't force u loving me anymore :))
i will make myself busy like nobody business ... I will alwaes love u now and forever .. Kept that in mind okehh ?? Do take care of urself  wen outside .. Dun do stupid stuff cos i do really care u now and later k ?? Thanx for the rings u gave it to me and i kept this ring as memories .. This ring will kept as memories btw u n me .. if i miss you , i will not text u but i look the ring u gave it to me ... And i will alwaes look on our photo ... 


Take care FAFAD ...
Bye :'(

Give up in Love

I will love u now and forever fafad ... But i gave up on u ... haish ! no matter what u r still my LittleMissEGO !

This is the person i really love

Yesterday spend tym with her .. hmm .. its was awesome day .. i mish wen i spent tym wth her dulu ..
haish ! just let me be frank i still waeting for ur bck no matter wat ... for what i wanna show to u tat i really love u ?? i just want u to realised how much love i had given to u and just pretend no love given :(
im just get hurt for everything .. i feel like yesterday like we da patch up gytu .. but actually no... 
haish ! just remember fad , AKU SAYANGKAN KAU ! SEDAR LAH FAD ! ISH ! BUT THERE IS NO WAY U WITH ME ! HAISH ! 

Fafad ,


I hope u realised now how much hurt am i ...
U cn just fuck me just like tat without thinking ..
But do u remember what i done , u got done before ??
Dun u remember that ?? 
Do you noe how hurt am i ?? im trying to avoid it ...
Fad , what u feel now its all everything i feel last tym ...
and i cn still feel the pain right in my hart now ..
Till now i still hurt with all ur movement u did ...
But did i ever show it ??  Did i ever ???
im good to you this while and now when i done the same thing u get hurt ...
haish ! fad , i hope u realised it .. dun be Fvcking EGO k ?? the more u EGO the more u will get hurt ..

REMEMBER FAFAD , IM NOT HURTING YOU ! ITS  KARMA HITTING ON YOU ... I DO STILL LOVE YOU NOW AND FOREVER ! THATS IT K ? TAKE NOTE ..
JUST REMEMBER

awesome with Syirah :))

Just having date with syirah 2 org aje :))
its was awesome :))
i fetch her at Pasir ris dhen actually we stuck kat pasir ris cos we dunnoe where to go ..
Caught red handed nan FYT BARNEYY ! haha ! sorry i tak prasan u :((


so i make plan go E.c.p with syirah ..
she say gong to rain n i say will not going to rain :))
Reach BEDOK mrt we took bus 197 ...
Actually im not really sure where to drop down so i just drop any bustop :))
hahs  ! And she kept on asked me " isit this bustop ?? if wrong i will hate you ?? :))"
so , i brought her walked through out the journey and she tell story telling :))
hahs ! aww . she so damn kiyut :))
Yes i know u r ! urghh ! 
Suddenly i told her that its going to rain :))
she marah me shey :((
haha ! atlast when she tok2 kan ... hujan tron dgn lebat in sudden :)
Haha ! i cnt stop laughing with her pasal hujan da lebat and kite masey jln and takde shelter pon ...


At last we stop kat satu tree ny and stay katsane about 10 min mcm bdk bodoh pon ade :) 
Aww . she so very the kelakar baju basah kuyop and i say to her " u sejuk eyk ?" she say "aah"
i offer her peluk ... abeh die ckp taknak pasl baju u pon basah ..
haha! atlast she hug me tight2 and i gave her a kiss kat lips and we walk g underpass:)


aww ~! she like mintak derme tawu kat underpass ...
she duduk sane and tok2 with me ...
after hujan stop... kite jln and she kept cubit2 me ..
haish ~! she remind me of FAFAD ...
hmm . takpe cubit2 ny sume da season :))


we reach kat ecp je kan tros we jln2 kejap aje .. dhen nampak mcm nak ujan kite dok kat pondok and she start to bareng ka kerusi n the head land on me ...
i loe to smell her hair tawu ... wangi ...
i play play her hair and start lah dgn die nye story lagy... 
and i listen sume masalah die . sempat nyanyi joget .. adoii hypernye die :)
hahs !

syirah is very very weird person i ever known okey ..
entah weird cm ane pon i dunnoe ..
haha ! i love to see when she smile ...
she make me melt with her smile tawu :))
nak alek i plan to send her back ..
she marah me and say she dun like all this kind ...
she tell what she like and dun like ...its damn weird but im trying to understand her lyf and herself :))


She was too awesome and different from others that i really know ...
she told me everything that others didnt done before ...


Girl , i just love the natural way u are :))
i admire u .
i like you .
i love you .
Thanx beiing there for me :))