I may smile outside but not inside

I maybe smiling all the way to entertain myself .

But the truth is deep here i'm too hurt .

It's not that i want to pretend but i can't show it .

It's hurt when in sudden you are down . 

Why should i cry all this ?

I didn't do anything wrong .

I'm sorry i can't entertain myself .

All my tears entertain my emotion all the way .

I don't want giving you sacarstic attitude . 

Because its still hurt me .

I'm sorry damn fcuking sorry :/

Still loving you & only you 

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Its my sister wedding day & also her 34 bdaey :))

Last long with ur Current husband my big sister .

Da tue kau eh ?

HAHAHA ! 

Ni bdk asyik nanges aje . 

tatawu ape dher nak :)

Its was tiring day i had . 

Kakak nak kahwin , aku tak tido .

Ngantok oit .

Must wear baju kurong -.- 

DAMN IRRITS oi !

KEPANASAN siaa .

Atlast p8 da top up . 

easy cntct GF :)

kalao tak punya lah susah .

haha ! 

My eye now sume rashes and i hate it much siia . gatal nak mampos . 

Saye rindu gf :'(

Nanty JUMPE dher :)

yahooooo ! 

Nak kiss neck dher lot lot pls ^^ 

Kk kalao gf dpt tau aku blog without dher tawuu , mampos aku ! hahaha ! 

anw saye tersangkot lagu ,

I'M SEXY & I KNOW IT ^^

wingle wigle wigle wigle ^^

kk byeeee sume :) otak blank :)) 

Bila bila Cinta QatekShortiie 

#cintaMAMPOS13

im 19

Im 19 atlast :) waiting for this day .

Celebrating with my gf & nana and all the friends.

Im celebrating with Indra also cos we fall on th same birthday .

Its much appriciated my gf bought me bdaey cake & nana bougt me HUGO BOSS perfume :)

Its totally fun celebrating my bdaey with my love one .

But i was damn fcuking sad when my parents not being there with me :'( 

i did cry before go ECP .

But nvm still my gf and others cheer me up .

i was too happy cos got to celebrate bdaey with my gf . 

Atlast we are still together and yet we got to celebrate our both bdaey .

 At 4plus, me & Farish maen hujan lah ape lagy kan ? haha ! 

Taklah actually kite g beli minom . 

We all drink and dhen actually tak mabok but down uhc pasal not enuf sleep nye pasal .

So plan tido je uhc tak prasan da pagy pon .

But gf totally nan takde mood . 

Actually bit down tap ya i fhm pe tga menses dhen lagy sorethroat so ya . 

When back naek bus all th way to clementi .

From clementi take 99 bck hm .

Pk dpt rest skaliey my anak sdare ade kene jage . 

What a tiring day .

And skg mata suda juleng mau tido :))

Tetap ku mencintai Mira Qatek <3

aisheteru 

#cintaMAMPOS13

all bout My life

All about my life ~ 

I'm a type who really love to pretend .

I love to act like as if nothing happen . 

After things happened , 

i guilty being a pretenders cos i gain more hurt and people thots tat i will always be okayy .

I love to act normal cos i don't want to hurt anyone . 

This is my real character who always understand people feelings & 

Don't understand my own feelings .

I don't wish this things to happen to me at all but my character is totally like this .

Currently in my life here come 

Mira Qatek :) my only precious one 

&

Nana Fana :) my lil sister .

Yes both is important to me . 

But yes my gf is more important and really precious to me in my heart .

she's being there with me when anything happen to me .

She kept everything inside her heart although she's hurt .

I understand how she feel cos me myself feels this before .

Its leave a deeply cut that take a longer time to heals . 

I know i've been always giving in on both of you . 

i keeping this while since the time about my birthday planning .

I should be happy actually but why was i deeply down & its hurts me alots ?

I just want  both of you to be there when my birthday .

but this isn't i want actually .

My girlfriend love to revenge .

I don't want that to keep in her heart .

Cos it's won't be happy like that cos i knew it everything .

How would i say if i rather spent my special day with my belove family ?

both of u will really get hurt .

I don't wish to have any suprise at all . 

Cos i just appriciate if both of you with me . 

I don't wish to hurt my girlfriend or anyone at all . 

I don't WISH for that at all . 

I feel like crying now , but who noes ?

No one noes cos i alwaes give in and react like things as normal . 

I don't wish to have any fight .

I don't wish to pretend again .

I don't wish to get hurt again .

I JUST WISH EVERYTHING WILL GET STABLE .

How hurt am i , i still being strong to stay here and accept for who you are ,

Cos my love is bigger than aWORD iloveyou that alwaes i whisper to you <3

You meant everything to me & don't because of that you want to take for granted .

Yes i admit i don't know how to elaborate how much i love you , but the action i did for you always show .

You just need to focus too . 

Im focusing every step you do .

so do you ?

I hope you feel me too . 

Our day

Its been a long time never spent time with my gf 2 person <3

Today was totally awesome spending time with her ,

watching paranormal activity 3 with her at Vivo City .

Firstly she was actually nak scared kan saye tap its turned another way round .

Haha  ! cerite terkejot kejot i was scared jgk actually but step brani lah , 

bile pat terkejot je mcm paranoid jap beh terdiam uhc .

Gf lak terpekik ! tawuu pon takot ^^ Haha ! 

PADAN MUKE KAU ! 

tetap aku syg kau .

After that kite plan nak dok dok kat vivo , 

gf plan nak g sentosa ,

so yeah we go sentosa g siloso beach .

Its dark and serious shit eerie .

For th first time i feel so uncomfort with th place but just keeping quiet :(

But so far i still enjoy my day with my FAVOURITE GIRL <3 

ILOVEYOU & ONLY YOU SHWIITHEART <3

my only cheeky girl 

#cintaMAMPOS13 

Im happy with my life

Such a long time never update my blog due to lappy breakdown

Just wanna share something what im happy with my life right now .

it's been 6month im with my gf <3

im so happy cos i make it till here and hoping we cn go far than this :)

We celebrating our 6monthsary at Henderson wave .

We ton-ed and yes for our first very first time , wishing each other face to face .

OMG !

so very th blushing of me but appriciate its alots cos we got to spent tym together that night , 

The next day still 13th what so i had planned that day jgk we go PLAY ^^

oh god my first time going there -_-

Saket kepale uhc but nvm my gf was prety awesome ,

Haha ! kau sexy sesangat ^^ 

(kalao bace ny takmu kembang)

So now being part of ur life now ,

im trying to make changes on my CHARACTER :)

But i hope u also play part of game with me pls ?

takmulah i sorng je try my best to change .

Saye cume sayang awak sorang aje MIRAQATEK

#CintaMAMPOS13

My only favourite girl