Hold me tight and never slip me off from ur hand

Wednesday, January 25, 2012


Lemme introduce she is my friend bestfriend .
And hell yeah my lil gf . 
I just fought with her and didnt expect this to happen :/
Im suffering here all this 5 days from fever and coughing . 
Being a half dead person here . 
Baby , wasnt me who dont want to contact you but you wouldnt understand .
I was resting at hm but dhen you just shoot everything to me while im sick :/
Everything follow by ur anger . 
Have u realise what u have said ?
Its hurt damn much.
Was thot wanna give u a suprise by fetchng you from school .
I noe you should be tired after trainning ryte :')
But dhen things happen and everything bring me down .
so i guess forget it and stay at hm .
although i miss you so much , i have to accept th facts :/

Baby , 
No matter what i still love you like the first time how i love you 
*kissforehead*

Wednesday, January 18, 2012


See this sweet girl <3
She's my favorite girl that i do really love much .
We have been spending time together although is just a short time .
But i guess it wasnt enough . 
I'm going off soon this saturday , At 8 am need to reach . 
Hais ! honestly i'm not ready for everything . 
Its really weird i should be happy now but guess i feel some bad  feelings but i just cant explain . 
Baby , although u r near to me still i miss you so much . 
I guess i just need you by  my side :'( 
I just wish we stay in a same house . 
I really love you & only you baby :'(
I don't wish to loose you in any way baby . 

Monday, January 16, 2012


That is my favourite girl .
 When ever i go theres she with me . 
We have been shared our laughter , Joyness & sadness in 9month together . 
We've been thru up and down with all obstacles that really i cant imagine might cause insane . 
We can't live without one another cos we deeply love each other but than sadly ,
We might stay together forever but nothing will bring us that far .
With every sacrifice we did for each one another ,
its make me realise we really need each other very much . 
It's been a long time we never spend much time together due to school re-open . 
I also started to get back on track by coming back to school .
I'm happy for myself by change myself into better person ^^
But i guess gf scared if my love might fade towards her . 
Well this confession was made totally clear to her just now . 
To be really honest in my heart , 
She totally comfort me ,
she replace someone in my life now . 
I just can't explain fully cos me myself doesn't know things change in sudden . 
I just need her to comfort me in everything . 
Was actually i'm finding someone that really can comfort me and at last i found it . 
Everything that she does always make me comfort even i can sleep soundly when i'm with her . 
For me it will always take a long time for me to have a comfort places where i can be pampered . 
I appriciate every step she does to win my heart fully . 
I just can't explain how much i really love her .
I just can't bear loosing her at all . 
She meant everything to me now . 
I just cant imagine if one day i loose her what will happen to me . 
She was my 2nd girl Longest relationship And always be the first in 2011 and be the Last of 2011 :))
Hopefully we will last long and stay forever happy :)

ILOVEYOUBABY !
#13 will alwaes be OURS <3



Sunday, January 8, 2012


What should i do now ?
I got interest on study but everything not ready :'(
Parents mcm tak kesa . 
Asyik kene marah je . 
Im bit jealous seing others get ready with their skewl . 
While me blom siap . 
How can i go school without anything . 
I've been keping alots deep inside till now . 
Im totally hurt deeply with their words . 
Im tired keeping all its hurt me alots .
I cant stop crying , I cant stop pretending at all . 
Tears roll :'(
I really cant take it anymore . 
They might seeing me smilling but they doesnt noe im hurt here . 
Doesn't know im crying here . 
Who cares ? 



Friday, December 30, 2011

What I feel

I've been keeping this few days . Things started to change when it's start to quarrel . You just giving some certain hint that telling me that I'm not tat so good to love you . I've been hurt that much a lots . don't you ever remember the time you post should share your proble with someone that you got like :/ it's fucking can't forget anything . And even you got say why didn't ur own gf pampered you why must others.it's fcuking hurt till now th pain doesnt gone. I can't say anything cos everything seems to be wrong . I don't mean to change myself but it change by itself and I just don't know why am I being like this . Revengeful in my heart . I try my best to throw everything . It's hurt much though but I'm trying keeping myself quiet cos I don't wanna hurt you in any way it does . Nothing faded but then , I don't know whats fucking wrong with me . I feel so fucking useless not like last time . I try being strong to be with you . I don't wish to lose you in any way at all cos for me you are really precious to me .I'm trying to change myself in a better way but it's still hurt me and it will take time to heal slowly. I'm sorry for everything change cos Im not me like who I am before . A lil bit change cos a lil hurt that hurt me deeply much . I just feel like crying but Dhen why should I . You could say my lil sister being there for me . Yes she did but Dhen I try not to be by her side let her be independent . And today in sudden things doesn't goes well again . It's been going to be 2weeks things remain like this . Baby nothing I should blame you . Maybe both of us make mistake without realise but Dhen I hope things everything goes well Dhen :/ still loving you like how I use to be . All though you tot something change in me :') attitude may change but not my love towards you :') iloveyoufavourite girl <3

Monday, December 26, 2011

Its been 1week this happens :/
everything i do all wrong :/ 
Sacarstic tone of voice easily irrits me -.-
What did i do ?
We didnt text much & otp today ,
I'm happy to get to hear ur voice but then ...
Haish ! 
Forget it im off to sleep :/ 
night !

Friday, December 23, 2011


Hey diary , long time i didn't update my blog , 
here you go..
Its been busy all day with GF lah ape lagy kan ^^ 
Yesterday gf sleepover my house lah :))
AWESOME NIGHT with you baby <3

#myonlyFAVOURITEGIRL

Before we slep yesterday we took some pics with my sis <3

Mcm org gilerh lah kite enjoy ourself laughing :))

Wee~
Missing my bdk babi helmet with tears :')
Meet up soon okayy when you free . 
masing masing skg busy .
Mak asyik tanye fana tak dtg .