i miss you

Hello ^^ Although you are just beside me , still i miss you la baby :( Feel like hugging you tightly la syg :) Feel like wanna stay all th way by yr side baby . Today i takley sleep beside you :( hais gonna miss you la my lady . hehs ! iloveyou baby ^^

Today giving girlfriend a lil suprise . By saying her im not be able to come over . She was a lil bit down but yet i turn up a bit late :) i was happy to see girlfren but yet in exchange she keep punching me cos i cheat her fealing :/ although its hurts and hell yeaah its bit ashamed in front of mama friends but what i could do :/ after that im being like normal back . We sat in her room and we playing game and sudden we were happy bobal and she tap my eye :/ i was like saying 'u da tak syg i ke ?' and yet she pull my hair very hard . Its hard much alots and just what i can do hold up my tears :/ i cant let it slip off how if th parent see:/ sigh . Bby im just ur gf and pls dun treat me so harsh :/ i didnt treat u until this way . Sigh

Hi Baby adhy wishing you Happy 11Monthsary baby <3 

Thanx for keeping our relationship this strong .

I really love you & only you <3

Im sorry i cant spent tymm much tyme with you . 

I promise once we reach 1 year i promise i will bring you out baby <3

And yes baby , i really need you by my side . 

Everywhere i am , actually i just need you by myside , 

Oh ya , unbelievable ah , 

We reach this long ^^

Hoping for more longer than this :))

Once again Happy 11 Monthsary baby :)

Its been a long never update my precious diary ♥

Time past , and yet still being together with my precious one , Nurul Amira daughter of Osman♥

Without counting th days, its been 10 months with her .

well not that i forget to count but both of us had been busy with our own school stuff .

Although we've been busy , 

Yet , still not to to forget leave some spaces for US . 

Well we've been gone thru up & down all the pain & happiness together .

I was too proud that she was too strong to uphold our relationship till now.

Every step she does ,  i appreciate  it much alot .

Sometime in my mind , 

Kept thinking how if on day she leave me again ?

Well , we might Last Long but not forever .  

I'm not ready to lose her once again . 

I cant deny myself that i really cant leave without her . 

Well what will be in my life without her .

Cut the topic ! 

Nothing should i think of now . 

Well , Currently with gf at her house , 

Kinda bored i guess , 

gonna layan her now than typing all long that full of craps :)

Logging off now ♥

Bye blogger ^^

#CintaMampos13 ♥

                                                                                      P.s : Amhy i love you alots♥ 

Lemme introduce she is my friend bestfriend .

And hell yeah my lil gf . 

I just fought with her and didnt expect this to happen :/

Im suffering here all this 5 days from fever and coughing . 

Being a half dead person here . 

Baby , wasnt me who dont want to contact you but you wouldnt understand .

I was resting at hm but dhen you just shoot everything to me while im sick :/

Everything follow by ur anger . 

Have u realise what u have said ?

Its hurt damn much.
Was thot wanna give u a suprise by fetchng you from school .
I noe you should be tired after trainning ryte :')
But dhen things happen and everything bring me down .
so i guess forget it and stay at hm .
although i miss you so much , i have to accept th facts :/

Baby , 

No matter what i still love you like the first time how i love you 

*kissforehead*

See this sweet girl <3

She's my favorite girl that i do really love much .

We have been spending time together although is just a short time .
But i guess it wasnt enough . 

I'm going off soon this saturday , At 8 am need to reach . 

Hais ! honestly i'm not ready for everything . 

Its really weird i should be happy now but guess i feel some bad  feelings but i just cant explain . 

Baby , although u r near to me still i miss you so much . 

I guess i just need you by  my side :'( 

I just wish we stay in a same house . 

I really love you & only you baby :'(

I don't wish to loose you in any way baby . 

That is my favourite girl .

 When ever i go theres she with me . 

We have been shared our laughter , Joyness & sadness in 9month together . 

We've been thru up and down with all obstacles that really i cant imagine might cause insane . 

We can't live without one another cos we deeply love each other but than sadly ,

We might stay together forever but nothing will bring us that far .

With every sacrifice we did for each one another ,

its make me realise we really need each other very much . 

It's been a long time we never spend much time together due to school re-open . 

I also started to get back on track by coming back to school .

I'm happy for myself by change myself into better person ^^

But i guess gf scared if my love might fade towards her . 

Well this confession was made totally clear to her just now . 

To be really honest in my heart , 

She totally comfort me ,

she replace someone in my life now . 

I just can't explain fully cos me myself doesn't know things change in sudden . 

I just need her to comfort me in everything . 

Was actually i'm finding someone that really can comfort me and at last i found it . 

Everything that she does always make me comfort even i can sleep soundly when i'm with her . 

For me it will always take a long time for me to have a comfort places where i can be pampered . 

I appriciate every step she does to win my heart fully . 

I just can't explain how much i really love her .

I just can't bear loosing her at all . 

She meant everything to me now . 

I just cant imagine if one day i loose her what will happen to me . 

She was my 2nd girl Longest relationship And always be the first in 2011 and be the Last of 2011 :))

Hopefully we will last long and stay forever happy :)

ILOVEYOUBABY !

#13 will alwaes be OURS <3

What should i do now ?

I got interest on study but everything not ready :'(

Parents mcm tak kesa . 

Asyik kene marah je . 

Im bit jealous seing others get ready with their skewl . 

While me blom siap . 

How can i go school without anything . 

I've been keping alots deep inside till now . 

Im totally hurt deeply with their words . 

Im tired keeping all its hurt me alots .

I cant stop crying , I cant stop pretending at all . 

Tears roll :'(

I really cant take it anymore . 

They might seeing me smilling but they doesnt noe im hurt here . 

Doesn't know im crying here . 

Who cares ? 

What I feel

I've been keeping this few days . Things started to change when it's start to quarrel . You just giving some certain hint that telling me that I'm not tat so good to love you . I've been hurt that much a lots . don't you ever remember the time you post should share your proble with someone that you got like :/ it's fucking can't forget anything . And even you got say why didn't ur own gf pampered you why must others.it's fcuking hurt till now th pain doesnt gone. I can't say anything cos everything seems to be wrong . I don't mean to change myself but it change by itself and I just don't know why am I being like this . Revengeful in my heart . I try my best to throw everything . It's hurt much though but I'm trying keeping myself quiet cos I don't wanna hurt you in any way it does . Nothing faded but then , I don't know whats fucking wrong with me . I feel so fucking useless not like last time . I try being strong to be with you . I don't wish to lose you in any way at all cos for me you are really precious to me .I'm trying to change myself in a better way but it's still hurt me and it will take time to heal slowly. I'm sorry for everything change cos Im not me like who I am before . A lil bit change cos a lil hurt that hurt me deeply much . I just feel like crying but Dhen why should I . You could say my lil sister being there for me . Yes she did but Dhen I try not to be by her side let her be independent . And today in sudden things doesn't goes well again . It's been going to be 2weeks things remain like this . Baby nothing I should blame you . Maybe both of us make mistake without realise but Dhen I hope things everything goes well Dhen :/ still loving you like how I use to be . All though you tot something change in me :') attitude may change but not my love towards you :') iloveyoufavourite girl <3

Its been 1week this happens :/

everything i do all wrong :/ 

Sacarstic tone of voice easily irrits me -.-

What did i do ?

We didnt text much & otp today ,

I'm happy to get to hear ur voice but then ...

Haish ! 

Forget it im off to sleep :/ 

night !

Hey diary , long time i didn't update my blog , 

here you go..

Its been busy all day with GF lah ape lagy kan ^^ 

Yesterday gf sleepover my house lah :))

AWESOME NIGHT with you baby <3

#myonlyFAVOURITEGIRL

Before we slep yesterday we took some pics with my sis <3

Mcm org gilerh lah kite enjoy ourself laughing :))

Wee~

Missing my bdk babi helmet with tears :')

Meet up soon okayy when you free . 

masing masing skg busy .

Mak asyik tanye fana tak dtg .

Unbelievable

UNBELIEVABLE !

8 Months being with my lil cute gf .

Gosh ~ Am i dreaming or what ?

Today 13 siia :))

Time fly tat fast eh ?

Well , its been a long tyme not having a long term relationship :))

Well , for me i don't really care how many months or years we been thru , 

but dhen sincere love is th most important :)

What for having a long term relationship without sincere ?

Well sincerely i really sayang my gf alots . 

Sincerely not from my mouth but totally from my heart :)

I just can't replace with with anyone else . 

We've been quarrel about all th small thingy . 

Well nothing changes in my heart :)

Its totally th same like last time . 

We've been thru up & down all this while . 

I was suprise that you are strong enough to overcome all th obstacle that step over us . 

I was totally proud of you being this strong . 

Well hoping this will stay with us while we continue our love journey baby :))

Let's fight every obstacle that come over us :))

ILOVEYOU & ONLY YOU BABY <3 

#CintaMampos13

Qatekshortiie 

"having a thot of turning back to straight :) my real world :)) but nah ???

I'm still wide awake . 

I can't sleep . My mind was ruining everything . 

I just can't explain anything that happening now . 

I'm weak to overcome this again & again . 

I've been keeping deep deep inside . 

I ca't let it out anymore . 

When i was about to tell everything ,

I was asked to shut up ,

But when i kept quiet and just keep it in my heart , 

You don't like and angry with me . 

What should i do now ?

You can just hate her for all you want ,

Cos i won't hate her for once . 

You can show your attitude .

She never done anything wrong towards you .

She didn't even fuck you around . 

She treat you like a lil'sister but yet this you give it to her ?

Not side you or her actually but yet please 

OPEN UP your eyes WIDELY .

Well you show people that you hate people all that , 

what if one day its happen to you ?

People hate with your character ?

Think far my dear ,

Its hard to overcome all this .

And hell yeah i won't ever say word 'LEAVE'

Cos its won't stated on my dictionary .

And yes , how your character is ,

I still accept for who you are . 

I'm trying to be the best person in your life but things bring down when you post,

"having a thot of turning back to straight :) my real world :)) but nah."

I'm down much much . GOSH ! 

Well , things happen i can't do anything already , 

Follow with the flow . 

Nothing i could force .

ILOVEYOU GF 

That girl beside me is my lovely gf <3

Well she meant everything to me although how irritating she are .

I love her so much and deeply loving her with sincere heart .

Currently she was not feeling well :(

I'm worried 'bout her condition . 

I dun wish to see her suffer :/

Baby pls go eat lah , don't empty ur stomach please ?

I don't wish something happen to you lah baby .

Tap kiyut tao kalao kau saket .

Mintak kene cium aje .

Selamat kau jauh bhy kalao tak ^^ hahahaha !

SAYANGKAULAHBABI !

muaaah muaaah syg NurulAmira <3

Hie ppl , I'm bit down due to my parents :(

today was actually supposingly i need to go for MP .

But yet my parents today go fishing . 

They promise me to accompany me .

Haish , What i can do is to pretend nothing happen deep in my heart was totally hurt .

I cant do anything to change . 

Mom & dad ,

Please understand me also pls ?

I'm nt strong enough to overcome this alone . 

You may see i alwaes happy but this while deep down here i was thinking what will happen to me . 

Haish 

Currently waiting for gf to reach my Cribs :)

Fcuking tired but yet she complain she's bored kan ? 

So ask her come over :))

Haiyoo muke so th busuk of me :/

I can't sleep well few days due of thinking lots of problem -.- 

Damn Me ! 

Today gf go reporting & dunnoe what will th PO say :(

I'm scared but i can't do anything :(

I don't want say anything lah .

What i know i just need my gf by my side :)

I just need pampered from her :(

Saye pon tatawu why in d sudden :)

Nvm skg saye nak complain ate saye da koyak habes :(

Terlalu sleepy shey :(

Anw rambot saye kolor brown brown grey .

Entah ape nak jadi nan rambot aku pon tatawu :))

:))

Hi everyone :)) saye happy sesangat skaliey ^^ 

See tat girl :))

its my Miss perfection that complete my love journey ^^

Thanx god things going on smoothly on courts .

Just now i so totally fucking nervous when she was up to court :/

I was about to cry cos i was too scared to loose her even a sec :/

her name was called by judge and i was too scared after i heard wrongly 2days prison & fine $200

seriously when i heard that my tears rolled down and i couldnt stop .

I can't bear loosing her at all . 

lastly get to know she only got fine -.- 

Gosh thanx god .

I was so totally paisey cry infront lots of people sia -.-

ish ! 

I really sincere loving her with fully heart siia . 

Now my mind was thinking wat will happen kat juvinille court lak ?

haish . baby im just scared anything happen to you , 

i wasnt preapared with anything up now . 

Cos loosing you can cost me uncounted tears :'(

Bby you are my everything hunney <3

You might not be perfect in other ppl eyes but yet in my eye you are just perfect fr me <3

ILOVEYOUBABY <3

:'(

See th girl i kissed ?

I really love her much .

I know whats coming right behind her . 

She become more sensitive .

I swalow everything cos me myself was thinking what will happen .

Its not th time for me to happy happy siia . 

You will see i'm smilling all that ,

but yet truly im sick being a pretenders .

Enough tears waste thinking of you .

Please baby i'm not ready fr everything even you ryte ?

Lots problem in my head .

Kept myself silent and pretend nothing happen but its totally hurt much :/

I'm scared , 

what will happen ?

I pray to god so hard nothing happen . 

I dun wish things happen again :'/ 

please understand me . 

I'm being cranky all this while cos im sick thinking all this . 

i can't stop thinking about you .

How precious you are to me ?

You are so much much precious . 

Please baby don't be so cranky cos me myself  being that mode but being strong face to everythings .

#idon'twishtolooseyou :'(

:/

It isn't being an easy person who love to pretend like me .

It's hard to cover all the hurt come around me .

It's really hurt and what only i can do is only pretend :/

1st problem : Cisco problem :/ Lawyer letter here you come.

2nd problem : My girlfriend :(

Come on dad feel me don't put much pressure , 

I maybe fine and ignore everything but i'm here pretending with all ur werds u threw me . 

It's y mistake making first move to everything but u ust actually give me some support but dhen 

kept nagging and throw all th words . 

I may not be care so much here but me myself in my heart deeply hurt :'(

Come here feel me . 

I can feel being a parents but come on be fair :/

It's hard but please understand me pls dad ?

About my girlfriend ,

I'm sorry being so cranky all such thingy .

I may not care bout you cos i don't want to show how suffer am i now . 

I'm scared loosing you , 

I don't wish happen for th second time again :'(

Its hard baby to overcome all this . 

I've been thinking all this while without you realised everything . 

2 more days to go and i feel weird :/

Haish ! gf i love you alots and like really alots :')

I may smile outside but not inside

I maybe smiling all the way to entertain myself .

But the truth is deep here i'm too hurt .

It's not that i want to pretend but i can't show it .

It's hurt when in sudden you are down . 

Why should i cry all this ?

I didn't do anything wrong .

I'm sorry i can't entertain myself .

All my tears entertain my emotion all the way .

I don't want giving you sacarstic attitude . 

Because its still hurt me .

I'm sorry damn fcuking sorry :/

Still loving you & only you